Michelle's Blog

‘To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did.’  When God takes something from your grasp, He’s not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.  ‘The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.’

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”

I love this.

“Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”

When you read this…REALLY read it…do you get goose bumps?  Do you feel what this verse is saying and what it means for you?  This is God’s will for ME and YOU!  This is what my Father in Heaven wants for me every day…God is so good.

Father God, you are so good and full of grace and mercy. I am so very thankful for a wonderful time spent with family and friends today and my grandson’s birthday.  I am thankful for fun laughter and the building of friendships that took place.  Please Lord keep watch over those in our lives that we may touch them in some way to plant your seeds of love.  Father I love thee so very much and I ask that you continue to stir within those closest to me that they may look upon your face and seek you and only you.  I love you God and I say these things in your name…Amen.

It is interesting in life that we meet people and just love them so much and as time goes by we lose touch – it is more as we grow and define ourselves in our different roles as we learn who we are and what our purpose is.  I have had some friends that I loved dearly – I do not love them any less today but I have not been in touch with them.  That saddens me.  I do break a smile when I think back though of silly or goofy things – innocent, clean fun and pure love for another person as a friend.  Facebook has enabled me to reconnect with many of these people and it is so nice to be able to just say goodmorning and have a blessed day…I am thinking of you!

Genesis 4:17-26; Genesis 5; Genesis 6 NIrV

I truly wonder in my heart what God feels for us now…He spoke of His sorrow for creating man because of the wickedness and evil and He flooded the earth…our world is so filled with filth and evil and it seems that it is okay – we are exposed to so much violence, hate and negativity that it has become the norm.  I cannot think and mediate on this because my husband is watching television…I may write more tomorrow as I re-read this.   I am feeling frustrated.

Matthew 2:19-23; Matthew 3 NIV

John the Baptist…wow, to baptise Jesus and to see the Heavens open up and to see the Spirit of God…how incredible.  When I was baptised I remember feeling this incredible peace…like I was okay, everything was okay.  The Holy Spirit.  I look back and realize that I have forgotten that day, that feeling and turned away from what I had learned, turned my back on God and went back into the world.  I am starting all over again but now I want to be firmly planted, unwavering as my friend would tell me – I do not want to be like leaves in the wind blown to and fro…I want to be the roots of the tree.  I have been baptized at Faith Chapel and it was very wonderful…it is my favorite picture – the pictures of my children being baptized are also my favorites.  Those were wonderful, important days in our life.

Psalm 3:1-8 NIV

David was in a difficult time and relied on our Father to see him through – it says David fled from his son and David mentions that many are against him.  I am not sure what he did but he has the faith that God will see him through.  He believes it is God that sustains him and gives him what he needs to get through the day and arise again.

I had to look up the word salah and did not get much information – it seems that it means something to the affect of stop and listen or that the words before the term were of importance…

Lord thank you for this time…thank you so much for giving me this strong desire to learn your word, to read and read again and put your words in my memory. I do love you so very much and I thank thee for all you are stirring within me.  I love you ~

I have always believed in God, the Father, the Son, the Holy Ghost.  I am not sure where these beliefs stem from because I do not recall going to much church when I was younger, I really do not remember any religion from when I was younger.  It was not until May of 2008 that I realized what a profound effect God has on my life.

December 3, 1990 I gave birth to a perfectly healthy red headed princess!  Kassandra is her name and it always suited her well.  Kassandra Nicole Thompson – later her father added Christopherson so she had more letters in her name than in the alphabet!  She is amazing…full of life – even upon her death – she brought life to so many around her.

May 3rd she was hit by a car and died instantly.  Her tiny little body did not withstand the impact and her internal organs were shredded, her spinal cord separated from the brain stem and she was gone.  Just like that.  I was not with her -  I was in bed, sleeping.

The reason I know that God played a part in this was for TWO weeks previous to this I had dreams, well…nightmares EVERY night.  One of my girls, not sure which one was killed in a car accident.  I could feel the sadness of loss in my dream – woke up every night in tears…I talked to the girls and told them about it.  I remember talking to Kass…we were in the kitchen.  She laughed at me and said nothing would happen to her and that she was always careful.  She had also told me that she never felt like she had a future…she always felt like her life would be short.  God was prepping me and I did not have a clue.  I have problems with that because I did not spend the time I wished I would have with her but you cannot turn back time…we can only move forward.

Since her death, I have attended church and found it so difficult because I get so emotional and all I do is cry.  I guess I am crying over the loss of my beautiful daughter because I miss her so much.  I want to dig in the Bible like I used to and read and learn and absorb but I just cannot seem to get past her loss.  I need to make time because I will see her again and I want to be prepared.  God took her because he NEEDED her.  Her death was life changing for many people and I cannot ignore that.  God has a purpose in all things – he saved my daughter from this world we live in.

Just my thoughts…I miss you Kassandra Nicole – I will always love you, to the moon, the stars and back again!  May God keep you and use you in all good things.

What a great weekend!  Went to Broadview to keep watch over the Alpacas while mom was gone.  See www.BroadviewAlpacas.com to see pics of the ranch and the great animals!

Spend the rest of the weekend getting websites fixed and posted and all that jazz.

I am enjoying Face Book also… you can see me at www.Facebook.com/Michelle.Thompson.Foos pretty fun to get in touch with people I have not seen or heard from in ~ well, over 20 years!  Yikes, that makes me sort of getting old???

If you have time visit my daughter’s website at www.KassandrasSmiles.com – she was beautiful, full of life, full of spunk and so much more!  She has been gone for over a year and I miss her every day.